100th POST!

I just feel like this bike right now. haha
i want to go on a bike ride...
it would be nice right now
oh. if only the days were warmer.
and if things were easier.
life would be as easy as a FARMER! haha

haha i just wanted to rhyme. anywho time to do work.

black friday

uhhh i'm broke. and none of it was real stuff. just random stuff. *sigh* so lame. but at least i bought stuff right? haha

april 21 is the day.

if you can guess what day it is... you are awesome.

life....

i love it. not.
yes. indeed. i love it.

right now...

i can't wait. to travel. get away from everything.
i can't take it anymore.

Busy week

very very busy this week. i just got my ochem test back today... 43%! hhaaha. not bad for only using 25 mins our the 60 mins that were given... (i was late for class if you didnt know why... haha) *sigh* this is totally my dropped test. with that... that means i have around a 74% in the class... which is BAD! i need to do good on the next exam which is the week after thanksgiving... AND on the final... *sigh* i could still get a B+ or something? hopefully!

uhhh i need to work on my Theology paper that is due on wednesday! that will be a huge part of my grade since i got a B and C on my last two papers... I need a B on this paper... it's too hard to get an A on the papers... she's very anal about everything! haha the final paper should be easy since its just all 3 of the papers put together... gonna be a lot of work still all due the week after thanksgiving!.... I've been acing all the tests/quizzes so that could help me a bit. hopefully an A-/B+ in her class...

i have a fine arts exam on wednesday... *sigh* so lame.

my sister has no school all week! luckky her! wait... i dont have school thursday and friday! haha... yay!

so yea. i need to finish that paper #3 and the ochem lab reportS and notebook write ups that i've been putting off. haha. OH! and my physiology final report and PRESENTATION that i need to work on with d.Le! *sigh* great! so much stuff to do.

(haha i'm posting a lot of stuff. cuz i'm close to the 100th post!)

i wanna see this movie. haha chick-flick-ish-y haha

Leighton meester new video with Robin Thicke! haha

 i say she should stick with acting... watching this makes me not like her anymore... haha and robin thicke too. i wonder what his hot wife at home is thinking!? shoot... not cool...


Somebody To Love - Leighton Meester

UP Women's SOCCER!!!!

I love our soccer team! they are so awesome! makes me wanna play! but i cant cuz they would kill me hahaha

Round 4 (quarter finals!!) UP VS. UCLA! (we lost to them last year.... but we will see this year! GOOD LUCK PILOTS! have fun in california! wish i could go see the game... btw, im still upset/mad that i lost my button from last year...)

Round 3 (UP vs Virginia Tech, 4-1)


Round 2 (UP vs UW, 2-1)


Round 1 (UP vs Denver, 4-0)

another interesting video...

Hurricane Bells - "This Year" Music Video from Hurricane Bells on Vimeo.

I think this is pretty interesting! the leader singer of this band is Ryan Gosling aka the main actor in the notebook! *sigh* haha

The pictures are from a book called "The Gashlycrumb Tinies" by Edward Gorey. pretty creepy. yet interesting. 




more songs from them

old stuff. memories.

wow. reading one of my old diaries from 2005... most of the stuff that i wrote about... still applies! it's crazy. it seems like i havent changed one bit!

RANDOM QUOTE in my diary. 
"I really cherish this friendship! Meeting the two of them was teh best thing in high school! If it wasn't for them two, i would've been a loner! haha! Yea.. I can't believe myself! But they helped me a lot...And i thank then!"

"SHE WOLF"

So today was pretty awesome.

(well yesterday now, i was in the middle of writing this... but i was forced to chow down my tuna salad... that i ACTUALLY made... haha surprising isnt it? it was so good. makes me wanna get some right now. welll anyways... back to why yesterday was so awesome - speaking in past tense from yesterday though. feel like it's more exciting if i do so. haha).

ok. the beginnning of the day was not that great.

1.  i had the new caramel brulee latte at starbucks... and i was getting sick in class. it made me feel sick! haha. i fell asleep in that class too (physio). so bad. so then i went to the library... and SLEPT! while the others were doing their own thing (studying for ochem exam... which is the one that willl make them or break them, meaning dropping that class or not haha). right now... i have a C+/B- in my ochem class... i dont mind if i get a B in that class... it's impossible for me to get an A in that class now, since of that incident that happened on monday... so bad. i was completely screwed either ways.
2. i went to 23rd...again. (two days in a row), but this time was for trader joe! (i think it is the closest one... by UP...) but yea i got some cookies and.. CHOCOLATE! and clif bars! i remember i used to live off of those last year... haha. i'm starting again. after that, i went to fat straw...again. this time i got a banh mi. i want to see all the hype about their bomb banh mi. i didnt think it was bomb... haha but my cousin owns this place... so i'll just keep quiet. haha. i only come for their green milk tea w/ tapioca + egg custard! 
3. i went back to school... and played with my new friends. (it is sad, but they are all freshmen! i feel more... me when i'm around them. haha i blend in so well!) i feel bad cuz we always joke around...IN THE LIBRARY! sometimes, there will be a whole row of asian (us and us) on the balcony... i feel a little weird haha. but recently, we've been moving around the library... i have my own secret spot to go to when i dont want anyone to come see me. but yea... haha the things we do... so funny.
4. so in physiology lab today, there was 2 student projects going... the first one was my friend's effects on blood glucose levels in HIGH, LOW, MEDIUM calories/fat intakers. i got the low calories and they fed me a salad with tomatoes, cucumbers, and i think it might have been balsamic vinegar dressing? but i could be wrong. it was good though. and also a WHole GIANT APPLE! it was hard eating the apple, i told her. haha. and i had to get my fingers pricked 3 times for her project! *everyone who was participating did. haha but still the pain! so funny cuz my professor was the one that pricked all of us... everytime it was my turn... he could sense my tenseness and everyone would stare cuz i was... being "dramatic" about it. haha my friend said, "sorry. this is not payback for last week though..." haha last week i made her drink my instant starbucks coffee for my project! it was pretty nasty.. cuz it was black... i mean i couldnt take it either... it was so strong! and it sucked for her cuz she couldnt drink the creamer that i bought! (it kinda helped to dilute the strong bitternes... but it was still strong!) but yea the other was grilled cheese for high, and... something else for the middle group... our class is awesome!

THIS IS THE MAIN PART
    5.   So finally frisbee class! it has been more than a month w/o going to class due to fall break, scheduling of the fields, and the captain being sick. i was dreading it before going to class today, since i was tired after a long day of... eating and doing random things. BUT i'm glad that i went. cuz we finally are playing mini tournaments, like a ladder... (what we would do in tennis and stuff..) so we counted off by 4... i  was a TWO! pretty awesome. cuz i thought this other girl, who was also a two, is cute/pretty and tall! haha. only us two girls on our team. the other teams has more than two girls which is weird. and it sucks cuz we got stuck playing in the chiles center. i also think one of my guy teammates is pretty cute... haha. *sigh* so bad. but yea we had to share the "gym" with the dance team... so we took half of their space and we conquered the top floor. i ended up in a team with pretty awesome people! my workshop leader from last year is on my team. he is pretty awesome! haha remembers my last name! haha (i knew he was the only one who signed me up cuz no one on my team knew me... but now they do!) yes... well most of them and the opposite team should know who i am now... cuz i am the SHE WOLF! hahaha i was in my element today. even though i was wearing like a button up shirt (assumed we didnt have class today haha), but had my sweat pants and running shoes in the car so its all good. haha. so yea at first i was being "BLAH" about going to class but when i started playing i felt good! adrenaline rush or something. i was like... what they (high school people) used to call me "SHADOW CAT" haha. i guess i was fast and came out of no where. well, so... i guess i made... a lot of "touchdowns" haha it felt nice! runnning for the disk, reaching above my head, jumping up and hoping to catch it right in the touch zone! it's like in those football movies... haha! i caught most of it! and i love it when i knock the disk down in front of someone's face! haha so mean but i like that feeling. (i had a dream about it last night, and my cousin got scared because when i knocked the disk down, i jerked! so she startled and thought i was possessed or something! i woke up thinking wow... i cant believe i dreamt about that! haha) so yea so in the middle of the game... people started calling me SHE WOLF! (because... the dance team was stretching/warming up to "she wolf" by shakira (SEE ABOVE) and my friends were dancing to it before the game began so thats where that came from...) haha so yea... near the end of the game.. we were in the lead... like 15-3 or something hahaha so the captain was like ok... "cap time" or something like taht.. i forgot the terminology! but basically its like in the next 5 minutes, if my team score 2 touchdowns then we can stop the game and we're done! if not then keep playing until... some time. haha but yea... i made the last two touchdowns... in less than 5 minutes!!! haha we were all screaming and yelling GOOD GAME! NICE JOB. ETC... haha pretty awesome... so yea. so my friend/team captain... officially named our team... SHE WOLF... hahaha! so yea yeppie! fun class! haha next next week the others and the rest of the class will see me in my element... i hope!


so yea i got home. got a missed called from my cousin. i knew it was twilight! haha. so we, me sister and cousin, went to see it. it was pretty good. hah i liked it. waited in line for about 30 mins or so until we could get into our seats. haha. it was full. but i didnt think it was a FULL HOUSE. but it got kinda stuffy in there...pretty gross. yea. then went home and showered and sleep! at 4 or so! i slept in my mother's room. i think i will for the rest of the month haha. im sick of my room. for now.


yep. thats all it is. upcoming weeks will be hell! i'm not joking. i need to stop having FUN! hahah

Status Cloud!

haha. i stole this from my facebook... i think it's interesting to see what most of my statuses were about... haha

Winter Song - Sara Bareilles & Ingrid Michaelson

Winter Song  <--- Link to the song...

This is my winter song to you
The storm is coming soon
it rolls in from the sea
My voice a beacon in the night
My words will be your light
to carry you to me

Is love alive? (2x)
Is love?

They say that things just cannot grow
beneath the winter snow,
or so I have been told

They say were buried far
just like a distant star
I simply cannot hold.

Is love alive? (3x)

This is my winter song.
December never felt so wrong,
cause you're not where you belong
inside my arms.

bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum
bum bum bum bum bum bum
bum bum bum bum bum bum

I still believe in summer days.
The seasons always change
and life will find a way.

Ill be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
so we can start again.

Is love alive? (3x)

This is my winter song.
December never felt so wrong,
cause you're not where you belong
inside my arms.

This is my winter song to you.
The storm is coming soon
it rolls in from the sea

My love a beacon in the night.
My words will be your light
to carry you to me.

Is love alive?
(repeat)

ONE REPUBLIC

I love One Republic! Their new album: WAKING UP. totally awesome.

Resemblance

Just looking at old photos.
My dad's style kind of resemble mine.
It's kind of freaky, yet cool at the same time.
I see my mom in me too.
haha, oh how stupid were those statements!
of course i have genes from my mother and father!

anywho, this is how i function at 4 in the morning! (people who spends the night and stay up with me, should know... i am SUPER DUPER weird around 5 am but it's funny haha).

so i fell asleep. haha.

now in physiology lecture. it is so boring! and i think the lack of sleep has an effect on this too.
8:10s are bad for my health.
i am hungry right now.
everyone is too busy to get fatstraw with me...

well i just got back to school. fat straw was good. havent had it in a while.
Escape from NY Pizza was good too! last time i had it was with a friend, maybe 1.5 years ago. haha.
Parking was a BUTT today. i went around for 30 or so minutes! then i gave up and went to UO to pick up some polaroid film... BUT THEY ARE OUT! so sad. that was my last and only resort! *SIGH*

Today, in workshop, i feel like there is a connection between me and my class! haha i'm happy. even though, i suck at teaching them, they all are really nice. Most of the time, i will be asking them questions rather than they ask me! haha i feel so stupid. But in a way, i am helping some of them... so im happy. there are 2 kids who are good at explaining so i pick on them all the time. haha it helps me and the other kids in class. there is this one girl... who stopped showing up since the 3rd week... but i dont blame her. it's not like i'm all that helpful haha. but yes... 3/4 more weeks left until we part. i will miss them haha.

but yea. my memory is gettting really bad. like today i repeated something... 3 times... to the same person... (each time i saw them... ) it's werid how i dont remember things like that anymore... i think my memory receptors need to get stimulated more often mostly my short term... i tend to remember long term stuff.. quite well... hahaha.

haha funnny cuz this post was made throughout today... thats why you see random stuff in different paragraphs... welll i think i'm done. nothing really new with me except how i failed my ochem test... since i had only 30 mins to do the whole test... and how i'm excited for thanksgiving... and christmas... sad cuz i realized... that this year will be my year where i wont get people/my friends anything... i wont have the money... since mother is not home... and im at the point where... everything is gone... i need to learn how to conserve! im sad. well i hope in that sense, that i will get what i want... meaning nothing from my friends. seriously. winter break will be awesome this year... me and my bed! haha.

quote #9

Good friends are those who are there for you no matter the circumstances.

- A friend.

Things I'm Giving up.....& quote #8

So recently decided to give up FB (deactivated it) and AIM. Twitter and Blogger is the only exceptions. haha. since i cant really get distracted from it unless im doing what im doing right now... posting on it.... haha. which i will stop soon cuz i have a lot of work to do this week and next and the following week and the week after that! basically not free until Dec.17! *sigh* a whole month! stressful. people are contemplating on whether or not to WITHDRAW from organic chemistry.... i, on the other hand... will not. even if i have a C! people need to chill. a C isnt that bad. i had TWO Cs in college so far... and im not stressing over it... even though i should cuz now i cant get into med school OR dental school.... what am i gonna do!? *sigh* life is hard. why does everything need to be so complicated?! i'll come up with something soon, i hope. if things weren't based on other things... life would be a breeze. maybe that's why it is the way it is... need to add some excitement into life... hahah....

well i am hungry. but im lazy to get food. no one to bring me food. *sigh* sad. will i survive? hopefully. it's only a month. it happens every year. sometimes twice a year... i should be used to it. but why do i still feel like this? maybe it's just the first day.... *sigh* hope all is well.


PS- i feeel like this next quote is very true for some parts... for me at least. it's only because i can't let go of the past that easily. again, im still learning. sometimes, im at the point where its all forgotten until something triggers it and again.. that feeling stimulates... and then everything comes back... i just hate that! i've mentioned this a lot, but sometimes i want someone to hit my head really hard... so i can get amnesia or something... so i can forget things. it would be great if i could forget the things i dont want in my head, but at the same time, i dont want to forget the happy things in my past. *sigh* but! with the future, i can make new happy memories so thats where im coming from when i saw i want someone to hit my head. if my happy memories are still apart of me after it's gone... it should come back... (i hope that made sense... haha) well here's the quote!


“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

—	Neil Gaiman

Am I a Jinx!?

I've been wrong. about a lot of things. I've been worrying about something that was not needed. It was at the right path though, my past.

I know that now is not the time to be writing on here. School is more important (at least for the next couple of weeks!), but I cannot concentrate with all this stress that is on my shoulders right now, all the guilt? the sins? the thoughts that i get randomly... I dont know. But I feel that if I don't tell anyone about this, I will eventually blow up or do something bad. Maybe I'm just thinking too much, like I always do. What I'm about to say is the main point of this post. I'm shaking. Sad. Regretting my old words. I dont know what to do. But here it is:

That post is like a foreshadow for how I'm feeling right now. Indeed, it is a He. I feel guilty. Because right now, I feel like I've put a curse on this:
my ex-lover.
he has died.
and i never got to say
"Goodbye" or
"I love you" or
"I miss you" or
get that last hug...

I dont know what to do. I cant do anything! *sigh* Why am I being punished? What have I done wrong? Everyone is leaving/has left me. Why does it have to happen at this time? Why? Why is it that every time I'm getting settled in my life for a slight moment, something unfortunate has to happen to me?

and why not me?
I wished it were me, instead.
My tears wont do any good.
Please make it stop. *sigh*

We were young. Times were easy. Now you're gone....
Rough times, now. But all i can do is smile and go through this myself. I think.

Relieving Stresssss.....

FORGIVE MY PROFANITY.

I HATED THAT WORD.... AND I STILL DO.

Quote #5,6,7

“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those, who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, the melancholia, the panic fear, which is inherent in a human condition.”

—	Graham Greene

“Love is needing someone. Love is putting up with someone’s bad qualities because they somehow complete you.”

—	Sarah Dessen

“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next.
Delicious Ambiguity.”

—	Gilda Radner

Taylor Swift Monologue

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The 7th of November

So I want to get one of these posters for my wall collection! haha. my wall is not empty no more! since my mom wont let me paint my walls, i'll put stuff on it. haha.

So this movie, NEW YORK, I LOVE YOU... is actually pretty good. It wasnt straightforward and definitely not one story. It was more abstract and contained 11 different stories (segments).

1. The Pickpocket scene with Hayden Christensen, Rachel Bilson, and Andy Garcia!
   
2. The Ring/Wedding scene... with Natalie Portman and some indian guy... weird scene, cuz she had a weird intimate moment with that indian guy and she married... a different indian guy... hahah
   
3. Music/Book scene w/ Orlando Bloom and the big eyes girl... uhhh i love him and his pants! but just him in general... haha. i dont care if he was living in a lame home or messy. he's still hot!
   
4. Pickup Artist/Writer w/ Maggie Q and Ethan Hawke! he is so funny! i love this scene i laughed so much. and she is pretty damn hot! haha. she's getting a lil old though. but i loved her in NAKED WEAPON (good movie, i think it's rated R though.... hahah).
   
5. Prom Night - the boy is the guy from star trek, with the funny accent... haha. this was pretty funny too. the belt and the tree branch... "make a wish" hahaha!!!
6. One Night Stand scene which jumps back and forth with Bradley Cooper and this one lady... haha very.... sexy. i mean him. haha he has a nice bod!
   
7. The Hotel scene with Shia La Beouf and this old woman - I do not get this segment at all! this was a pretty interesting scene in the movie. i need to go look this up. haha. i know its something about loneliness and stuff. but yea....
   
8. The "Manny"? or the black father and white daughter - this was pretty sweet. i think. it sucks to be him though.
   
9. Painter/Artist looking for inspiration? - this scene had ShuQi in it. and some random old man who likes to draw her... i cant believe what happened to him. but it was foreseen. so sad. you never know what would happen in life. the minute you see them, the next you might not! gotta cherish the people around you.
   
10. Husband+Wife on a corner of a street pretending to be strangers so their love life would get/be more interesting? haha i guess that's what i got from it! gotta mix things around and be different. cant be bored... with the same thing...
    
11. The Old couple! i think this was funnny too. and cute and sweet! *sigh* i wonder if i would be like this when im old and with my husband... haha it would be nice...
    

There were some transition stories like the guy with the complaining girlfriend, saying he never takes her anywhere! haha i think its cool how he bought her tickets to ROME! and first class - coach! haha.

But yea i think that was it... THis movie is a rendition of PARIS, JE T'AIME! In my perspective it is better than the Paris one. I fell asleep watching the paris one. but yes. i like this movie even though the reviews were bad. good thing i went to watch this. otherwise, i would have missed something coool about new york... it's one of the cities of love! hhaah common theme? i'd say trying to connect with people and finding love!

So other than this movie today, I went to see my dad. It has been awhile. almost a year. this time i didnt go by myself. i had my friends come with me. I'm glad they went. I never ask my friends to go with me cuz i feel weird asking them to go to a cemetery... it's not normal... haha my sister was like... why are you telling your friends to go? it's not like you're marrying them or anything! it's like meeting the parents.... what a lil nonsensical and senseless girl! anywho, it was awesome that they went even though it was pouring down rain and cold... they still went. it means a lot to me. they all know that when it comes to my father i get emotional about things haha. i was gonna do a speech today in front of them, like introducing everyone to my dad and vice versa. but i couldnt do it. i didnt want to break down in front of them. so i did it in my head. it was a lil funny. also, i didnt want to take long cuz again it was RAINING HARD! haha i got all wet... but i said a lot of things to dad. it helped me a lot. told him about my friends. prayed for them and yea... asked him to help me and guide me. show me the path that i need to go as if he was still here. i guess i'm still bitter about the fact that i never had a father or a father figure person in my life. i envy others who do and dont cherish it. but i guess that's how it is for everything, you dont appreciate the things you have until it's gone! i think this might be one reason why i try so hard to not lose things. like i try too hard to keep things right and good. like i dont want to lose my friends or my family. i've lost too many. and it hurts. maybe that's why i'm so weak when it comes to breaking up, moving away, etc... but anyways the point here is i have good friends. hahah.

So we went Everywhere today to eat!

1. MoJo crepes
   
2. Gary's bakery?
   
3. Elephant's Delicatessen
   
4. Sansai? sushi place...
   
5. Skinnidip!
6. Pix!
   

What a day. eat too much. fatties we are. haha. fun times. it's always nice to hang out with my friends (for me).

Btw, if you've read my previous post (halloween one), i am sorry. for making you worry. about me. it was just a segment of my feelings. thoughts. stuff that is hard for me to say aloud. i will try to post happy stuff from now on. to prevent you, my friends, from worrying. about me.

Quote #4

"Any person with any imagination is bound to be afraid." -F. Scotts Fitzgerald.

After Tonight

ah. satisfied.
i have come to an epiphany that i have been looking for (since the beginning/the start of this blog).
time to start a new self. this realization is awesome. haha.

Bad Dream I Had

I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.

Today is...

the 5th!

i am happy at this time in the day.
i think i have bipolar disorder. haha.

Halloween

wow. halloweeen. lets seee what can i say about this. random and disappointing yet i loved it cuz i was hanging out with my friends. not just any friends, but people who i dont get to see often. nowadays, it seems like i never do get to see anybody anyways... but i was happy. As you can see... i was a FARMER! haha. my costume = my nerdy urban outfitters glasses, my OLD NAVY overalls (size 16 in kids... haha), my plaid shirt from AE, and my sister's Hat. oh... and eye liner for my beard. haha i loved it. it was random but i thought it was awesome. every one at the party was all dressed up all girly... haha i felt a lil weird that i was the only girl who went... all HALLOWEEN-Y. haha

so i came with a couple of people. Ty (Mrs Potts - who i just met.. on that day...), Anna - luigi! i sew on her buttons for her costume! and Alyssa - Mario! pretty cool costumes. haha



Well, i might steal some more pictures... but sadly, i didnt get to take any more pictures... i was out of it by the time people came... man, i'm so weak. BUT here is my promise: NO MORE! haha. that night was embarrassing enough. my friend's boyfriend had to carry me out of the house... that was so embarrassing. *sigh* i ruined their halloween! hahha. i shoulda just stayed there and sleep it off. but no, i dont know what i was thinking.... i had to pick my friend. i wonder what would have become of me and what would happened if i didnt go with them... hmm something i would never find out.

sometimes, i wonder, if my decisions are good and what other people want it to be. its so hard to read people's mind. at least for me, i cant do it anymore. some people i can just like that, but for others... i would have trouble or even never know what they are thinking or like.

i have regrets &secrets.

• the past was great, heartbreaking, sad, happy, memorable, free and young, done stupid things and made mistakes. from all those ups and downs, we grew. you and i, we were different people, & we still are. yet we are still the same. in a way, college has turned you into a complete stranger. you are not the same to me. and you will never be. like i said, we grew. becoming different is not the reason for my indifference toward you. it's just that now, you dont need me anymore. or thats how i feel and it hurts. my emotions/feelings are really strong for how i deal with things in my life. maybe that's the reason why, i cant move on fast enough. the stuff i say externally, is just a disguise for my true self, the internal reasoning of everything.
  

who can this be?
my ex-lover.
he has died.
and i never got to say
"Goodbye" or
"I love you" or
"I miss you" or
get the last hug...

i have sins. pins, bins, tins, and wins.

• so many things has happened.
  
• i hate liars, but i have lied. i lied to keep things good. i lied so i dont get hurt. i lied to myself.
• the days are coming to an end. i have to stay strong. for Him.
  
• i use to think "how can i live w/o you?"
• but i have to live in order to win Him back. (if that makes sense).
  
• living = winning.
  
• dont want to die & waste your life away.
  

I will miss Him.

[this post may or may not make sense to you. it is ok. no need to fret. nothing bad will happen]

The guy in here... is HOT!
Daniel "cloud" Campos