Disappointment

I've got say... I've been watching this anime called "NANA" and i thought it was really good... until the very last episode which is episode 47! i dont get what happened! *sigh* geez. what happened to nana and ren? and nana and nana!? oh gosh! but yea i got a lot of things from this anime. haha pretty funny because it's just an anime... i wouldnt think it would be deep but this was pretty deep. two girls...randomly meet on a train, became roomates & friends, even though one didnt say much and one was really talkative they got really close... to the point where they feel uncomfortable, vulnerable, etc... you can say that they love each other. of course there are boys that interfere with this. ps - both NANAs are in a relationship with punk rockers. but yea i guess it's a story of two best friends, dreams, relationships, etc... i reallly liked it. thats why i watched it til the end, but it was disappointing thought the end would wrap things up for me. but it didnt.

this is a romance drama anime. not appropriate if you guys dont like lovey dovey stuff. haha there's a japanese movie of this which is like 2 hours so that would be better than watching 47 episodes of the anime! i havent seen the movie yet, but i will soon.

haha right now i feel like a nerd cuz i'm wearing glasses in the dark typing this... ok that's all for now. just wanted to rant cuz i was disappointed in my anime!

Chris/Diane Le's Church Youth Group Camping Trip!

The Cool Group that went on the HIKE #2!

Giant Spruce of Cape Perpetua Heritage Tree (nearly 600 years old!)

The TREES!

Near the Top of our HIKE'S Destination #1!

The DIANES

Chris!

Overall it was an awesome experience. met new people. "got to know each other" better. etc. My face is burnt. haha. its all red! *sigh* after those hikes, i've been sore for like 3 days now! i neeed to get back into shape! starting tomr. but as of right now, i need to SLEEP! so sleepy! good night!

Movies i wanna see coming soon!

****Coraline + Watchmen on DVD!!! (This week)


MY SISTER'S KEEPER! (even though it came out a long time ago... haha)




Away We Go! (even though it came out a long time ago too... haha)


(500) Days Of Summer!


The Ugly Truth




Aliens in the Attic... (kiddish, but i think one of the guys = cute hahah)



ADAM



G.I. JOE: RISE OF THE COBRA



Paper Heart


The Time Traveler's Wife




Jennifer's Body


Where the Wild Things Are


Further OUT:
New Moon (November 20th, 2009)
Brothers (December 4th, 2009)

Sherlock Holmes (December 25th, 2009)
Alice in Wonderland (March 5th, 2010 )
Iron Man 2 (may 7th, 2010)
Toy Story 3 (june 18th, 2010)

1st Fashion Type Thing on Blog....

1. SEQUIN SHOES, STEVE MADDEN 2. BAG, ZARA 3. SKIRT, H&M 4. BLAZER, ZARA


1. tartan shirt, H&M 2. peace shirt, selfmade 3. jeans shorts, selfmade 4. brown bow bag, primark 5. roman sandals, german shoestore


1. Shorts, Zara, Zara


1. checked shoes, pointer 2. leather belt, WE Fashion 3. skarf, Second Hand 4. basic tee, ZARA 5. olive cardigan, H&M 6. military bag, swiss army, second hand 7. brown pants


1. big black bag, vero moda 2. tartan scarf, H&M 3. ballarina skirt, vero moda 4. roman sandals, german shoestore 5. white top, H&M

This is something different from the rest of my posts so far. Gives you my sense of fashion creativity in me, that i never showed. haha since the clothes i want are oh so expensive!!! but yes, these are pretty girly you might say for me. somehow, i like it. i think im becoming more girly! haha which is pretty cool. i still want that tomboy side of me though. i think that part makes me different from all the other girls. i mean, everyone is different, but you should know what i mean. theres always this something, this different thing in someone you know, that either makes you feel comfortable, everything is free, dont have to worry about a thing, you're basically your TRUE SELF when you're around them or you don't like them at all or can't be the real you and you dont want to see their face! haha. JK! PS - "true self" is hard to find. really, i dont know who i am yet (see previous blogs to get where i'm coming from). ANYWHO, i'm rambling on about my lame life again... aahaha let's make it the end of it. and ponder on the real purpose of this post - FASHION! i'm still looking for my fashion inspiration... there are so many!

(500) DAYS OF SUMMER.......

Looking forward to this.....

Another Spontaneous/Random Moment[s] Day: Brought Back Some Old Memories

So yesterday was a random day. Hot as heck. did some errands for school. finally, got into the ochem lecture & lab! went for some YoCream w/ the sister and a friend. It was not what i expected since i've been hearing all these rackets from a lot of people (via facebook). It wasn't THAT good.... haha. i still prefer Skinnidip! Then went to Ikea. got a new desktop lamp thingy.... now i can read without getting out of my bed to turn off the lights! haah yes i am one lazy person. then went home and rest.... until, another friend called to go watch HP! then it was a chain of invites! it was like a small reunion! THE SQUARE!!! haha. i liked it. it has been a long time since the four of us hung out. oh the good old days in high school (freshmen/sophomore). i didnt think HP was that bad at all! it was kinda draggy... but it was alright. i'm excited to find out what happens in the end.... we got out at like 1 ish.

so afterwards there were only two left. the others needed to be dropped off and no more gas.... haha. so we spontaneously picked MONTAGE. she read my mind kinda. haha. i was thinking that we should go there since they open late (4 am friday-saturday). it was pretty cool. dark. and chatty. well it made me feel chatty. cuz i was talking throughout the late night dinner. got done around 3. haha that's how slow i eat. haha. but yea overall, the day wasn't planned, but i did a lot of stuff today. brought back a lot of memories. some that couldnt be remembered, but tried.

I'm happy. we're still here. still together.

Under the cheap July sky.

So basically July is the month. The month of downtime and sunshine. The Dog Days of Summer! But I've been just chillin' at home. Not doing anything special but SLEEP! eat, watch anime: Vampire Knight, Vampire Knight Guilty, Umineko no Naku Koro ni, Phantom: Requiem for the Phantom, Eden of the East..., read: The Kite Runner (I reread the beginning cuz i forgot where i left off) haha I dont know on chapter 5, not clear on what the point of the story is yet, but i think i'm getting there. I've also been trying to play the guitar. I dont think i can because my fingers are too fragile & weak. but i'm still trying. not giving up yet. the sad part, i havent gone outside to play and get all sweaty! haha. i miss those childhood days.

I told my sister that i was reading the kite runner and she was like "is that for your summer reading for school?" and i was like "... no?" she said, "for FUN?!" and i replied, "....yes?" haha. i guess it was something surprising. I'm becoming a nerd since i yearn for school to come soon. I said i would buy some textbooks early to start reading it and get ahead, but i still havent! the laziness/procrastination will never die in me, school or no schoool. (next year, i wont slack off like i did first year of college. i was naive or should i say overestimated my intelligence. haha. sad, now i know i'm not that smart and need to study!!! haha.

i still need to find my feet.

At The Stage Of Changes: Passion & Self

So today, I have nothing better to do but to stay in my pod and surf on the nets of random sitees. I came across a few things and made me realized that I need a passion or a motivation to get me somewhere... who knows, I might already have it inside of me, but i just dont know what it is right now. Like I said before, I need to find out who I am.

But anyways... I want to start a lot of things. Things that would make a difference in my life instead of just going on facebook, twitter, blogger, tumblr... I mean why do I need to go on these things all the time? I don't. It's just nice to stay connected w/ your friends - I like that feeling, but alone time is good for the soul. I think that's what I'm going to do. I mean, I tried quitting facebook earlier this summer, but it didnt work. But now, i will limit my use or even my time on the computer. It's taking away my life!

The things i want to do before the summer ends... a lot!

1. Read!

• East of Eden -John Steinbeck
  
• Atlas Shrugged
• Forever Amber
• Frannie and Zooey
• Indiana - George Sand
• Lolita
• Nine Stories
• Rebecca -daphne du maurier.
• Mary by vladimir nabokov
• Brave new world - aldous huxley
  
• les miserables - victor hugo
• The Doors of Perception & Heaven & Hell - Aldous Huxley
• Angels and Demons - Dan Brown
  

I think there are more books that i want to read... if any one of you want to donate or let me borrow some feel free!!! haha.

The # 2 thing i would do is to write some songs... i know i know, pretty shocking isnt it? But yes, I want to write music. I feel like I can if I can get inspire by something... and i feel like a lot of things has happened... i mean high school is still fresh... and first year of college is truly an experience... yet... i'm still SINGLE!!! oh the lonely life. potential line: "how it feels to be single since you were born" hhaah.

I don't think I have any further actions... I mean reading all those books would take me forever! maybe even a lifetime! JK hopefully i wont take long! my first book is going to be the kite runner, since a friend let me borrow it since the beginning of the summer and i havent touched it since...

I'm going to just live life the way it is given to me. whatever i have. whatever i can get i'll use it and live with it. i wont try to ask for more.

I've been having second thoughts. what if im not suppose to be into the medical field? what if i'm here for a different purpose? like the peace corps or something. HA! maybe even the ROTC progam... or environmental sciences... Oh. I want to explore more. BUT I feel like there is pressure... pressure from family and FAMILY! i cant go anywhere... I have freedom, but really do i have freedom? I feel like i'm stuck in a maze. no matter how big it is. there is only one exit with so many paths... i have a lot to choose from, but there is only one right one... therefore, i cant really choose! it was pre chosen! or preplanned! the only way they would give up is to see the downfall, when i drop out of it... and follow my real dreams... which i dont really know what it is yet. i still have roughly two years to think about... after this year, i will make up my mind for sure. so far the choices lined up for me: doctor (dont know what yet, i'm thinking about pediatrician, or obstetrician but yea... dont know yet), dentist, engineer, pharmacist, surgeon,.... seee? i dont know what to do if i dont stay in the med field... *sigh* funny.

alrighty. i think this is good for now. it's almost five o clock am and i'm not sleeping yet. which is not good. so yeah good night.

Scared, Confused, & Anxious

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."

I know this might sound crazy, but i think i'm going crazy. I'm losing my mind! my memory! i dont remember the time i took my meds, i dont remember if i took a shower today, so i took two showers! i forgot to turn off the stove! these are only some of the things i've forgotten to do or dont remember...TODAY! maybe it's just my fever or whatnot acting up... but still it is scary.

it seems to me that bad things usually happen to good people...why do bad things happen to good people? i'm so confused! maybe they aren't good people? i dont know... oh the confusion...

i'm anxious cuz it's fourth of july coming up! always an awesome holiday... i think... with incidents... like 2007--kevin's messed up eye (went to the hospital for the rest of the night), 2008--cops @mt. tabor then onto some place near johnson creek? something like that... 2009--(i dont know yet...., hopefully nothing bad!!!). but yea excited to spend the weekend ish with an ex-close friend haha! ;)

oh i just got a hair cut... i dont know what to think about it.... *sigh* but yea. ok. time to sleep!