well i am hungry. but im lazy to get food. no one to bring me food. *sigh* sad. will i survive? hopefully. it's only a month. it happens every year. sometimes twice a year... i should be used to it. but why do i still feel like this? maybe it's just the first day.... *sigh* hope all is well.
PS- i feeel like this next quote is very true for some parts... for me at least. it's only because i can't let go of the past that easily. again, im still learning. sometimes, im at the point where its all forgotten until something triggers it and again.. that feeling stimulates... and then everything comes back... i just hate that! i've mentioned this a lot, but sometimes i want someone to hit my head really hard... so i can get amnesia or something... so i can forget things. it would be great if i could forget the things i dont want in my head, but at the same time, i dont want to forget the happy things in my past. *sigh* but! with the future, i can make new happy memories so thats where im coming from when i saw i want someone to hit my head. if my happy memories are still apart of me after it's gone... it should come back... (i hope that made sense... haha) well here's the quote!
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
— | Neil Gaiman |
I love you! Please try to be happy.
ReplyDeletelove... so complicated. the past is the past. learn from it and make no regrets. thats i how i think bout it. even though it may seem as a mistake, it never is.
ReplyDeletehaha. i love you too? whoever you are...
ReplyDeletebut yea, chris. the problem is i dont know what love is. haha! im just saying like i do know what it is... but really i dont. i feel like we're too young to know what it is. and people are too naive thinking that they do know what it is... i dont know haha. but yea we learn from our mistakes/past. i totally agree.
thats why i think its so complicated. there is definition set in stone for love. love is what u make of it and in ur own personal opinion. i feel that i love my family and really close friends, but i still really dont know what it is truly. its definitely a term that thrown around very loosely today.
ReplyDeleteindeed it is. haha
ReplyDeletei meants there is no definition set in stone... haha
ReplyDeleteThanks for the birthday wish(es)! :]
ReplyDeleteIt's tomorrow. But I will be spending it playing Frisbee and being at open lab. Sadly. lol.
I feel like I should get rid of Facebook too. But that's one of my only connections to a few of my friends who I talk with but maybe would not over the phone. lol. I will learn to resist. lol.
The quote... seems so sad. Love is supposed to be the greatest feeling ever.
But I guess... it can't always be happy...