~A New Beginning~

Ok, I finally reached that point... the point of... sanitation (realization)... what i should do to sanitize everything (it didn't take me that long, as you can see).

I shouldn't be spreading more germs @ anyone. if it should be at anyone, that anyone should be me. I can't prevent germs from spreading in general, but i can find alternatives to reduce them from spreading. putting hand sanitizer on would help but it wont solve the problem for long because there are still germs underneath the deepest part of the skin. the only way to get into those cracks is to turn into a small little good bug like a...macrophage and climbs through those mountains of valleys and hills & fight in the territories of dead skin cells and warriors of the Tox Clan! Walking & looking around on the surface is nothing compare to the inner surface of things, which is all the adventure and deepest secret chambers are hiding at.
so what i am saying is, there is no time for me to do harm or spread germs to others. i need to find ways to prevent them and be versatile with those germs instead because there are too many out there already hidden, it's only in a matter of time, when they will [all] come out. So there is no point for me to decrease the lifespan of the leukocytes anymore. if the immune system collapses, i would be gone. so it is best for me to get along with the germs somehow...

i know there are no right or wrong ways of doing it. but when it happens, it happens. spontaneity! oh i love that word, free energy!
But back to the point, being mad only makes the problem(s) more difficult to deal with or more awkward and nothing will get accomplished with these things in the way.
So i hereby, announce to those who are reading this that i will become a better &happy person & will try to not act rashly and do things out of emotion/feelings [too often because it will hurt me in the end].

i ask for forgiveness for being so random/out of the blue like this [sometimes or a lot]
it usually doesn't happen like this though, mostly in my mind, but i just wanted you guys to know who i really am and what i think most of the time. i think it is easier than having me tell you in person with random thoughts floating in my head here and there & i get nervous about what i should say or how to say it and then i forget stuff and usually it ends up not going anywhere & you either get frustrated/irritated with that always happening. so i think Blogging would be a better way.

well, back to work!



PS... i wont go back to facebook for awhile. but if you know me well enough, you know i will be updating this a lot and also twitter will inform you if this is updated or not... but most of the friends dont have twitter! But anywho, i hope this is the last of my emo days. life cant be like this all the time, so i will try to make this a cool & awesome BLOG!!! haha