pain

it's one of those times again. where pain comes into play in my life... weekly! if im lucky, monthly.
oh it hurts.
is it the food?
is it the lack of exercise?
is it the lack of sleep?
is it due to deterioration?
or is it for being sinful?
no remedy, no doctor, can fix this.
(but what do i know... since i dont seek help)

what is it you might ask?
the pain - physically, spiritually and mentally.



PS - just something random I thought about recently...
wouldnt it be scary to find out that your friend/lover/iono bf, gf, bff, etc... have been lying to you about who they are for most of the relationship? that would be scary. lies are no good. it wouldnt be good if the person found out the truth. and it wouldnt be good if the person doesnt find out, cuz you are only lying to yourself at that point. so why was i thinking about this topic? cuz i hate liars. i know i lied in the past. more like digression. but i like things to be truthful from now on. but who listens!? blah blah blah...