Things I'm Giving up.....& quote #8

So recently decided to give up FB (deactivated it) and AIM. Twitter and Blogger is the only exceptions. haha. since i cant really get distracted from it unless im doing what im doing right now... posting on it.... haha. which i will stop soon cuz i have a lot of work to do this week and next and the following week and the week after that! basically not free until Dec.17! *sigh* a whole month! stressful. people are contemplating on whether or not to WITHDRAW from organic chemistry.... i, on the other hand... will not. even if i have a C! people need to chill. a C isnt that bad. i had TWO Cs in college so far... and im not stressing over it... even though i should cuz now i cant get into med school OR dental school.... what am i gonna do!? *sigh* life is hard. why does everything need to be so complicated?! i'll come up with something soon, i hope. if things weren't based on other things... life would be a breeze. maybe that's why it is the way it is... need to add some excitement into life... hahah....

well i am hungry. but im lazy to get food. no one to bring me food. *sigh* sad. will i survive? hopefully. it's only a month. it happens every year. sometimes twice a year... i should be used to it. but why do i still feel like this? maybe it's just the first day.... *sigh* hope all is well.


PS- i feeel like this next quote is very true for some parts... for me at least. it's only because i can't let go of the past that easily. again, im still learning. sometimes, im at the point where its all forgotten until something triggers it and again.. that feeling stimulates... and then everything comes back... i just hate that! i've mentioned this a lot, but sometimes i want someone to hit my head really hard... so i can get amnesia or something... so i can forget things. it would be great if i could forget the things i dont want in my head, but at the same time, i dont want to forget the happy things in my past. *sigh* but! with the future, i can make new happy memories so thats where im coming from when i saw i want someone to hit my head. if my happy memories are still apart of me after it's gone... it should come back... (i hope that made sense... haha) well here's the quote!


“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

—	Neil Gaiman