it's one of those times again. where pain comes into play in my life... weekly! if im lucky, monthly.
oh it hurts.
is it the food?
is it the lack of exercise?
is it the lack of sleep?
is it due to deterioration?
or is it for being sinful?
no remedy, no doctor, can fix this.
(but what do i know... since i dont seek help)
what is it you might ask?
the pain - physically, spiritually and mentally.
PS - just something random I thought about recently...
wouldnt it be scary to find out that your friend/lover/iono bf, gf, bff, etc... have been lying to you about who they are for most of the relationship? that would be scary. lies are no good. it wouldnt be good if the person found out the truth. and it wouldnt be good if the person doesnt find out, cuz you are only lying to yourself at that point. so why was i thinking about this topic? cuz i hate liars. i know i lied in the past. more like digression. but i like things to be truthful from now on. but who listens!? blah blah blah...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
Updates!
Homecoming game night 10/02/09
Pictures taken from Brian Vu
Homecoming NIGHT 10/03/09
"Toast to the night!" ___________ Pictures taken from Brian Vu
This was pretty much the highlight of the week! (my week, at least)
Homecoming wasn't that great for me, but for the boys I think it was great. (Don't know about Chris though, sorry! It was so hot and I'm not a dancing person... haha)
Anywho, today, monday, I got my test in Ochem back... 87%! way better than my first one, which was 67%? haha. If it wasn't for my lame doubts, I would have gotten an A! 96% or something! OH well, next test! For bib trad (biblical tradition & culture, Theology 205), I got 98% on the first exam! haha. Freaking out on the paper that is due this week and the QUIZ! FYI, this is not an easy class; one of the hardest class at UP! *sigh* Physiology is not starting out too well. need to change that F to an A! (that's the spirit!).
Time to let go, and MOVE ON! - there's no point in thinking of the past when it's already over. Once it's over, relax and enjoy the rest of your day/life. The main point is to enjoy learning new things and understanding it rather than caring/sweating over the GRADE and forget everything later on! Just something my dean told me when I went to him for an interview about study abroad. Interesting guy with interesting questions. For those who don't know, I'm planning on going to London this summer - taking 6 credits of upper division biology over there for about 6 weeks. I dont know if it's a good idea, but right now, my heart is wanting to go. So, I'm just following my heart for the time being.
So, I can't wait for Fall break! Not because of my birthday. It's never because of that. I remember last year, I totally forgot about my birthday until someone talked about it like 2 days before it. This year, it's totally different! Everyone is just asking "what do you want for your bday!?" It's nice of them, but really, I really want nothing. Hanging out with friends and PEACE&LOVE! haha. If you can find me a nice boy, that would be great! JK. don't want a boyfriend yet. I feel like, it wont be anytime soon. Being in a relationship, messes w/ friendships. It's either Boy/Girl vs. Friends. I hate that. But i guess, i need to grow up. cant have friends there with me forever! at some point, they will leave. depends on the lame time.
but enough about this. TIME FOR HW/STUDYING!
:)
Pictures taken from Brian Vu
Homecoming NIGHT 10/03/09
"Toast to the night!" ___________ Pictures taken from Brian Vu
This was pretty much the highlight of the week! (my week, at least)
Homecoming wasn't that great for me, but for the boys I think it was great. (Don't know about Chris though, sorry! It was so hot and I'm not a dancing person... haha)
Anywho, today, monday, I got my test in Ochem back... 87%! way better than my first one, which was 67%? haha. If it wasn't for my lame doubts, I would have gotten an A! 96% or something! OH well, next test! For bib trad (biblical tradition & culture, Theology 205), I got 98% on the first exam! haha. Freaking out on the paper that is due this week and the QUIZ! FYI, this is not an easy class; one of the hardest class at UP! *sigh* Physiology is not starting out too well. need to change that F to an A! (that's the spirit!).
Time to let go, and MOVE ON! - there's no point in thinking of the past when it's already over. Once it's over, relax and enjoy the rest of your day/life. The main point is to enjoy learning new things and understanding it rather than caring/sweating over the GRADE and forget everything later on! Just something my dean told me when I went to him for an interview about study abroad. Interesting guy with interesting questions. For those who don't know, I'm planning on going to London this summer - taking 6 credits of upper division biology over there for about 6 weeks. I dont know if it's a good idea, but right now, my heart is wanting to go. So, I'm just following my heart for the time being.
So, I can't wait for Fall break! Not because of my birthday. It's never because of that. I remember last year, I totally forgot about my birthday until someone talked about it like 2 days before it. This year, it's totally different! Everyone is just asking "what do you want for your bday!?" It's nice of them, but really, I really want nothing. Hanging out with friends and PEACE&LOVE! haha. If you can find me a nice boy, that would be great! JK. don't want a boyfriend yet. I feel like, it wont be anytime soon. Being in a relationship, messes w/ friendships. It's either Boy/Girl vs. Friends. I hate that. But i guess, i need to grow up. cant have friends there with me forever! at some point, they will leave. depends on the lame time.
but enough about this. TIME FOR HW/STUDYING!
:)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Changing....
Wow. Very disappointed in myself. My Physiology test score = 54%. F!!!? wow. i think that is my first F! i dont remember the last time i got a F! so depressed right now. it's numbing my mind and heart. I don't even know what i can say right now. but how stupid i am. and such a slacker. OR maybe Biology isnt my thing. I'm so scared. Life is scary. sometimes i really dont want to carry on. It's so stressful for me. and I'm so weak. really, I am.
But it's time for serious change. no more hanging out and having fun. seriously. i can do it. and i will for a while to see how things work. ok. no more facebook. no more. and this time, i really mean it. people can email/call/text if they need me. if they dont know my number or email then... they dont need to talk to me. i didnt need facebook back then then why now!?
However, I will continue to blog. helps me release negative energies. alright. good. bye.
But it's time for serious change. no more hanging out and having fun. seriously. i can do it. and i will for a while to see how things work. ok. no more facebook. no more. and this time, i really mean it. people can email/call/text if they need me. if they dont know my number or email then... they dont need to talk to me. i didnt need facebook back then then why now!?
However, I will continue to blog. helps me release negative energies. alright. good. bye.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Places to EAT!!! (will fix this later too lazy and need to do hw... haha)
CREPES
1. Java Vivace Coffeehouse
2. Perierra Creperie
3. Virgo and Pisces
4. Le Happy
5. tour de crepes
6. http://www.mojocrepes.com/index.html
Breakfast (not like i wake up in time to have breakfast... but ehh haha)
Byways Café
Besaw's café http://www.besaws.com/
Cameo café http://www.cameocafe.com/
Stepping stone café http://www.steppingstonecafe.com/
NORTH PORTLAND (Lombard/Mississippi/Missouri/Williams?)
FlavourSpot
Pix
Lincoln restaurant
Anju http://www.anjupdx.com/Home.html
Sushi
Masu Sushi
Sushi & Maki (82nd?)
Asian Food
Saucebox
Ohana (hawaiian food)
Sorabol (korean bbq)
Chef Naoko
Big Kahuna's Barbeque
Mexican Food
Laughing Planet Café
Por que no?
American food
Pambiche
Fire On the Mountain Buffalo Wings
Hawthorne or Near...
The Waffle Window
Perierra Creperie (Crepes: review) (Hours: Tues – Sat: 8am-3am; Sunday: 9am – 3pm)
Q BBQ (turkey, chicken: review)
Potato Champion (fries)
Yarp?! (noodle dishes: spaghetti, burgers, vegan: review)
Palio Dessert & Espresso House
Iorio Restaurant (Italian)
Pearl District/23rd Area
Andina
Serratto Italian Restaurant
Oba (cuban)
Fenouil (French)
Daily Café in the Pearl
Candy
Laughing planet (mexican food)
Rogue Ales
Berbati http://www.berbati.com/
23 & Hoyt
Papa Haydn
Tao of tea (tea place…haha)
Caffe Mingo/Bar Mingo (italian?)
Paley's Place http://www.paleysplace.net/ (seafood ish?)
Wildwood (seems expensive…)
Muu Muu's http://muumuus.net/MuuMuus/muumuus.html
Lucy's Table http://www.lucystable.com/ (EXPENSIVE)
Serratto http://www.serratto.com/index.php
Stepping stone café http://www.steppingstonecafe.com/
Downtown
Portland City Grill (always wanted to go in that PINK BUILDING!)
Mother's Bistro & Bar
Higgins (expensive! Good/ok food more like a date type of place or business talk)
Chef Naoko
Nicholas (lebanese, mid eastern)
Saucebox
1. Java Vivace Coffeehouse
2. Perierra Creperie
3. Virgo and Pisces
4. Le Happy
5. tour de crepes
6. http://www.mojocrepes.com/index.html
Breakfast (not like i wake up in time to have breakfast... but ehh haha)
Byways Café
Besaw's café http://www.besaws.com/
Cameo café http://www.cameocafe.com/
Stepping stone café http://www.steppingstonecafe.com/
NORTH PORTLAND (Lombard/Mississippi/Missouri/Williams?)
FlavourSpot
Pix
Lincoln restaurant
Anju http://www.anjupdx.com/Home.html
Sushi
Masu Sushi
Sushi & Maki (82nd?)
Asian Food
Saucebox
Ohana (hawaiian food)
Sorabol (korean bbq)
Chef Naoko
Big Kahuna's Barbeque
Mexican Food
Laughing Planet Café
Por que no?
American food
Pambiche
Fire On the Mountain Buffalo Wings
Hawthorne or Near...
The Waffle Window
Perierra Creperie (Crepes: review) (Hours: Tues – Sat: 8am-3am; Sunday: 9am – 3pm)
Q BBQ (turkey, chicken: review)
Potato Champion (fries)
Yarp?! (noodle dishes: spaghetti, burgers, vegan: review)
Palio Dessert & Espresso House
Iorio Restaurant (Italian)
Pearl District/23rd Area
Andina
Serratto Italian Restaurant
Oba (cuban)
Fenouil (French)
Daily Café in the Pearl
Candy
Laughing planet (mexican food)
Rogue Ales
Berbati http://www.berbati.com/
23 & Hoyt
Papa Haydn
Tao of tea (tea place…haha)
Caffe Mingo/Bar Mingo (italian?)
Paley's Place http://www.paleysplace.net/ (seafood ish?)
Wildwood (seems expensive…)
Muu Muu's http://muumuus.net/MuuMuus/muumuus.html
Lucy's Table http://www.lucystable.com/ (EXPENSIVE)
Serratto http://www.serratto.com/index.php
Stepping stone café http://www.steppingstonecafe.com/
Downtown
Portland City Grill (always wanted to go in that PINK BUILDING!)
Mother's Bistro & Bar
Higgins (expensive! Good/ok food more like a date type of place or business talk)
Chef Naoko
Nicholas (lebanese, mid eastern)
Saucebox
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
living @ school
so bassically just wanted you guys to catch up with my LAME life! haha
IM TOO LAZY TO DO HW/STUDY. SO IMMA BLOG IN THE MEAN TIME.
So, lately i've been feeling happy (or at least i try to make myself happy). feeling sad and nostalgic wont help in anyway. Though, i think about the past a lot still. just random stuff when something hit that spot and brings a flashback! sad/happy moments, but that doesnt matter, what matter is the memory is still there somewhere. I hate it when i forget something, but the lost of old memories bring new memories! right? haha. anywho...
I've been at school a lot. but it doesnt mean that hw/studying is being done. more like distractions! too many people at the library nowadays. i need to find a new spot somewhere so no one can distract me! i need to focus and stop hanging out with people. my first ochem exam didnt go so well. *sigh* im pretty sad. i kinda study, but then i underestimated how hard the test was gonna be and i didnt know how Dr. Bard was gonna write the exam. It would be nice to have a study group with people, but most of them are in the different class! so lame. then again, i have this problem with asking people for help. *sigh* oh the pride that i have. it gets in the way sometimes... BUT i love to help others. I would offer to help UNLIKE SOME PEOPLE! that annoys me a little. *sigh* why can't we all help each other out!? some people are just too selfish!
anywho enough with school. so i went to the VEGFEST today. it was cool. FREE SAMPLES! i went with a friend, the only one that wanted to go with me! haha the lame friends i have. he's a nice guy and i got to know him a little better! it was a great day. What i loved most about it was: free samples of course! got to try a lot of ice cream flavors! out of all, i liked coconut and mint chocolate! umm they had some vegan chocolate bars, but i didnt like it. didnt taste right/good. i liked the hemp milk! it was good! too bad i didnt get to take any bottles of it! i saw someone take one bottle, but i didnt think it was for free! and so i tried a sample and asked "how much it was" and she said it wasnt for sale there but i could get it at like WHOLE FOODS or stores like it... ugh. i shoulda just take one when they werent looking! haha jk. but yea we got a lot of stufff. kept going back for seconds for a lot of the booths. like TEA (rreallly good tea, will go buy some at WHOLE FOODS!!) ICE CREAM! CRACKERS - kale, vitacrisps? and others... we grabbed like 8 WHOLE FOODS GREEN BAGS and ORGANIC APPLES and bottles of this one drink that i forgot the name of and am too lazy to go look! hahah but yea we are so asian! i felt like we got our 5 dollars worth (for admissions). haha. it was nice learning about being a vegan. but i dont think i will ever become one. maybe once in a while but not for life. i love my steaks too much. OH, the veggie pattie that i tried at the fest was SO SO SO GOOD! totally buying it. i feel like if i lived out and not at home, i would become a vegan though. cook for myself and everything. but since i live at home, mom's cooking is what i will have to eat or go out to eat. like when she went to vietnam last summer, me and my friend made veggie burgers, pancakes, mash (not mash potatoes, but mash like chopped veggies) and stuff to eat. it was good. so yea. i can survive without my mom's cooking with the help of friends. haha. even though i want to help earth, i dont think with me switching to vegan can help it... the earth will still be destroyed by global warming which is caused by eating ANIMALS? haha i dont know, i'll have to read this one article first and i'll tell you guys about it later.
Okay. done with me venting about ochem and my fun fun fun day. now time to write lab reports and papers for FINE ARTS and study OCHEM and PHYSIOLOGY! and BIBLICAL TRADITIONS AND CULTURES!
IM TOO LAZY TO DO HW/STUDY. SO IMMA BLOG IN THE MEAN TIME.
So, lately i've been feeling happy (or at least i try to make myself happy). feeling sad and nostalgic wont help in anyway. Though, i think about the past a lot still. just random stuff when something hit that spot and brings a flashback! sad/happy moments, but that doesnt matter, what matter is the memory is still there somewhere. I hate it when i forget something, but the lost of old memories bring new memories! right? haha. anywho...
I've been at school a lot. but it doesnt mean that hw/studying is being done. more like distractions! too many people at the library nowadays. i need to find a new spot somewhere so no one can distract me! i need to focus and stop hanging out with people. my first ochem exam didnt go so well. *sigh* im pretty sad. i kinda study, but then i underestimated how hard the test was gonna be and i didnt know how Dr. Bard was gonna write the exam. It would be nice to have a study group with people, but most of them are in the different class! so lame. then again, i have this problem with asking people for help. *sigh* oh the pride that i have. it gets in the way sometimes... BUT i love to help others. I would offer to help UNLIKE SOME PEOPLE! that annoys me a little. *sigh* why can't we all help each other out!? some people are just too selfish!
anywho enough with school. so i went to the VEGFEST today. it was cool. FREE SAMPLES! i went with a friend, the only one that wanted to go with me! haha the lame friends i have. he's a nice guy and i got to know him a little better! it was a great day. What i loved most about it was: free samples of course! got to try a lot of ice cream flavors! out of all, i liked coconut and mint chocolate! umm they had some vegan chocolate bars, but i didnt like it. didnt taste right/good. i liked the hemp milk! it was good! too bad i didnt get to take any bottles of it! i saw someone take one bottle, but i didnt think it was for free! and so i tried a sample and asked "how much it was" and she said it wasnt for sale there but i could get it at like WHOLE FOODS or stores like it... ugh. i shoulda just take one when they werent looking! haha jk. but yea we got a lot of stufff. kept going back for seconds for a lot of the booths. like TEA (rreallly good tea, will go buy some at WHOLE FOODS!!) ICE CREAM! CRACKERS - kale, vitacrisps? and others... we grabbed like 8 WHOLE FOODS GREEN BAGS and ORGANIC APPLES and bottles of this one drink that i forgot the name of and am too lazy to go look! hahah but yea we are so asian! i felt like we got our 5 dollars worth (for admissions). haha. it was nice learning about being a vegan. but i dont think i will ever become one. maybe once in a while but not for life. i love my steaks too much. OH, the veggie pattie that i tried at the fest was SO SO SO GOOD! totally buying it. i feel like if i lived out and not at home, i would become a vegan though. cook for myself and everything. but since i live at home, mom's cooking is what i will have to eat or go out to eat. like when she went to vietnam last summer, me and my friend made veggie burgers, pancakes, mash (not mash potatoes, but mash like chopped veggies) and stuff to eat. it was good. so yea. i can survive without my mom's cooking with the help of friends. haha. even though i want to help earth, i dont think with me switching to vegan can help it... the earth will still be destroyed by global warming which is caused by eating ANIMALS? haha i dont know, i'll have to read this one article first and i'll tell you guys about it later.
Okay. done with me venting about ochem and my fun fun fun day. now time to write lab reports and papers for FINE ARTS and study OCHEM and PHYSIOLOGY! and BIBLICAL TRADITIONS AND CULTURES!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
School is taking over my life?!
ha! nah it's not. or at least school hasnt yet... i still fit time to chill. crazy, yes. what can i do? it's hard not to!
but yes. what is different this year? more youngsters, of course. and MORE asians! eww. so blah. like today at the library, there was a table full of asians... and yes i was sitting there. but left in no time. nothing against asians, just why not spread!? haha. jk. i like my asians...
so anywho changes. i think i changed. i dont have that "patience" anymore. i get vex so easy nowadays... i'm scared myself. i guess i've matured over the summer while others are still la-de-da-ing. well not quite "mature" but child-ish things ehh me. not like i dont do it too, but like there's a limit to it you know? i dont know. we are like... old now. 20 ish?! and stilll people are not thinking. i know it is fun to be wacky sometimes, but you gotta know when and where! *sigh*
so this year, i feel like it's gonna be a good year. imma keep things up.
ochem - with bard, i think it's gonna be fine. we'lll see after the first test (next monday)
Fine arts - this guy is really chill. i dont think he knows what he is talking about.... haha
Bib Trad - the bible is interesting... the teacher is nice. she's a nun! haha.
Physiology - she's like ms koch and ms goodwin mixed together! so it's gonna be easy! hopefully.
physiology lab - he's hot. haha. young and sophisticated.
ochem lab - she's super nice and chill. 2 of the TAs are cool. one really anal!
Frisbee - the guy is hot too. haha. i think i'm good here too.
overall, im happy with my classes. not much distractions. good.
plans for this school year? nothing so far.
lots of people have been mentioning about my bday. i dont want to do anything for it. i dont wanna crash. haha. its weird. hopefully, that's cool. if chris can do it. why cant i? haha. ok. done with that. i want a costume party! i wanna dress up like max! from the WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE! haha so cute!
ok time to study/do hw/plan my lesson for class tome.hope my kids are nice and good and not anal! haha.
but yes. what is different this year? more youngsters, of course. and MORE asians! eww. so blah. like today at the library, there was a table full of asians... and yes i was sitting there. but left in no time. nothing against asians, just why not spread!? haha. jk. i like my asians...
so anywho changes. i think i changed. i dont have that "patience" anymore. i get vex so easy nowadays... i'm scared myself. i guess i've matured over the summer while others are still la-de-da-ing. well not quite "mature" but child-ish things ehh me. not like i dont do it too, but like there's a limit to it you know? i dont know. we are like... old now. 20 ish?! and stilll people are not thinking. i know it is fun to be wacky sometimes, but you gotta know when and where! *sigh*
so this year, i feel like it's gonna be a good year. imma keep things up.
ochem - with bard, i think it's gonna be fine. we'lll see after the first test (next monday)
Fine arts - this guy is really chill. i dont think he knows what he is talking about.... haha
Bib Trad - the bible is interesting... the teacher is nice. she's a nun! haha.
Physiology - she's like ms koch and ms goodwin mixed together! so it's gonna be easy! hopefully.
physiology lab - he's hot. haha. young and sophisticated.
ochem lab - she's super nice and chill. 2 of the TAs are cool. one really anal!
Frisbee - the guy is hot too. haha. i think i'm good here too.
overall, im happy with my classes. not much distractions. good.
plans for this school year? nothing so far.
lots of people have been mentioning about my bday. i dont want to do anything for it. i dont wanna crash. haha. its weird. hopefully, that's cool. if chris can do it. why cant i? haha. ok. done with that. i want a costume party! i wanna dress up like max! from the WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE! haha so cute!
ok time to study/do hw/plan my lesson for class tome.hope my kids are nice and good and not anal! haha.
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